Change

I honestly don't know what has been happening for the past few weeks, I feel like I'm beginning to fall behind and lose control of my self... I'm literally screaming back for my old self to return... I'm just feeling so lost. It's like I'm not even confident anymore. Feeling like I'm so focused on whats around me and not what's inside me... Its just like I'm becoming a more selfish and arrogant person... its like I am becoming the complete opposite of what I wanted to be... I'm blending in too much... and that's what I've never wanted to be... I've always wanted to stand out and not blend in , its just becoming so obvious that I'm losing my self... The thing is, I'm never a happy person, I'm just always good at masking...My whole happiness, the whole "being jovial", is just to cover up the sadness... the whole point of me writing poem is to express the emotions,embrace the past, and recover from the fall...

Now that I've acknowledged this, its time to change things up... but first

-identify the reason for the sadness

- remove the mask and face reality

-be happy

- stay focused

-passion

-God